Sharing his story. Elliot Web page recounts his expertise popping out as transgender within the public eye in his new memoir, Pageboy.
The Juno star, 36, introduced the tell-all ebook — which hit cabinets on Tuesday, June 6 — by way of Instagram in December 2022.
“Writing a ebook has come up a number of instances over time, however it by no means felt proper and fairly frankly, it didn’t really feel potential. I might barely sit nonetheless, not to mention focus lengthy sufficient to finish such a process. Finally, I may be with myself, on this physique. So, I’ve written a ebook about my story,” he captioned the publish.
The Umbrella Academy actor went on to notice that he hoped his private account might assist others who’re going by means of comparable struggles and fight anti-trans sentiment.
“Trans persons are going through rising assaults, from bodily violence to the banning of healthcare, and our humanity is frequently ‘debated’ within the media. The act of writing, studying and sharing the multitude of our experiences is a crucial step in standing as much as those that want to silence and hurt us,” he wrote. “Books have helped me, saved me even, so I hope this will help somebody really feel much less alone, really feel seen, regardless of who they’re or what path they’re on.”
Web page got here out as homosexual in 2014 earlier than saying that he’s transgender in December 2020. In a candid publish shared by way of Instagram on the time, the Oscar nominee shared that he felt “fortunate” to lastly share his true self with the world.
“I really feel overwhelming gratitude for the unbelievable individuals who have supported me alongside this journey. I can’t start to specific how outstanding it feels to lastly love who I’m sufficient to pursue my genuine self,” he penned.
Regardless of the catharsis of popping out, Web page’s memoir reveals that his journey has not been a simple one. In a chapter titled “Well-known A—gap at Occasion,” the Whip It actor opened up about an unnamed actor making inappropriate feedback relating to his sexuality at a 2014 occasion in Los Angeles.
“You aren’t homosexual. That doesn’t exist. You’re simply afraid of males,” Web page recalled the “acquaintance” saying to him. He then instructed the Canada native: “I’m going to f—ok you to make you notice you aren’t homosexual.”
Dangerous feedback about Web page’s id haven’t come solely from acquaintances, nonetheless. “I’m sick of the creepy concentrate on my physique and compulsion to infantilize (which I’ve at all times skilled, however nothing like this). And it isn’t simply individuals on-line, or on the road, or strangers at a celebration, however good acquaintances and buddies,” the Emmy nominee revealed in Pageboy.
Web page recalled a specific second the place he felt assured about himself — solely to be inadvertently dismissed. “‘You look cute,’ a pal stated at an awards present after occasion,” he wrote. “Somebody who’s a Pulitzer Prize–successful progressive drive. You’re feeling dashing AF, actually for the primary time at an occasion, after which a buddy has to roll in with that.”
Web page additionally shared that he “couldn’t speak” to one among his buddies “for a very long time” due to her response to his resolution to get prime surgical procedure.
“’I suppose that’s simply one thing you don’t make a remark about,’ one among my dearest buddies stated on the heels of a protracted pause after I shared my resolution to get prime surgical procedure, one of many first individuals I instructed,” the X-Males actor penned. “She most definitely made ‘a remark’ with out ‘making a remark’ and proceeded to make extra, providing her opinion unprompted.”
The Gaycation alum additionally opens up about a number of of his romantic relationships within the memoir, together with his marriage to dancer Emma Portner. (The exes tied the knot in 2018 and known as it quits in 2021). Web page famous that the connection allowed him to delay confronting the fact of his gender id.
“If part of you is at all times separate, if present in your physique feels insufferable— love is an irresistible escape,” he wrote. “I felt that Emma’s feelings at all times took priority over mine. This, I’m sure, was purposeful on my half. The avoidance, the working, the numbing, the disassociating — all of my nifty ways at their greatest. Dangerous for me and dangerous for them. And finally, it had nothing to do with Emma.”
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